Daddy

November 25, 2019

In last night’s dream I am with my son. He is an infant in real life but here in the dream he is a bit older like around the 12 month mark. He looks at me and says, “Daddy.” I am shocked because he has not spoken any words yet so for me to hear the first word out of his mouth as Daddy is very touching to me. It is at this point I realize he looks different. His hair is golden and he has strands of hair partially covering his face.

Peter?

This dream vision I had today when I took a brief nap in the afternoon. I didn’t believe I would be able to fall asleep but shortly after I closed my eyes a man approached me. He bent over and looked me in the eyes. Once we made eye contact he asked, “Are you Peter?” He caught me off guard and I assume it was a real person. Someone with authority to ask me who I was. Feeling the need to answer him I replied in an audible voice, “Ruben”. I was so tired and drowsy from the onset of the dream I could barely get my name out of my mouth. As he returned to a upright standing position, I could see his penis. His penis immediately ejaculated. I had the feeling I had come to late because how did he manage to ejaculate so quick. I heard a voice say, “We are giving you a child.” I touched the semen with my index finger to see if it was for real. I felt something but couldn’t come to a conclusion if this was for real or not.

Confused I wondered if this person was predicting another child for me? Inside me I wanted clarification. Do you mean you are giving me the child I already have or are you giving me a second one. I don’t think I can handle two.

A part of me knew this was for real.

Cross Roads

November 12, 2019

This is a group of dreams I had recently that I haven’t been able to journal because of time constraints. I think this is the first dream I’ve journaled since the birth of my son Oliver. Being a parent now in the early days is exhausting but I felt I needed to get back to journaling.

In this first dream, I am needing to summon my strengths. I’m not sure what strengths are needed or why but I vaguely remember praying for advice and the strength to carry on at home with Oliver and with deal with my loneliness in not having a relationship; my two biggest desires Oliver and a relationship. In the dream, I seem to have come into a state of knowing within the dream a sort of awakening at a the point immediately after I have given my supplications. As my awareness expands with the answer I am told I already have what I need at my disposal I simply need to summon it up. I am in my dining room and see the two crosses I have hanging on the wall each representing the crosses of my mom and dad when they died.

I somehow know I can call on the strength of Jesus through the love and memories of my mom and dad. Yet I still have doubts I can do this. Knowing the dream cannot be wrong I decide to try to reach within myself and do as instructed by summoning the power from within. I begin to feel a well spring rising within me as the walls begin to move. The walls spread apart to embrace a greater space. I realize it really does work for me to believe.

Encouraged by my success I continue to pull from within. The walls continue expanding to reveal an ocean where from the horizon comes toward me the body of Christ in the air. Unlike the two crucifixes which hung on the dining room walls this body is an illuminated body.

In the next dream I am returning to a previous dream. It is the second time I have been here. I am downtown where I work. Since it has been so long I am trying to remember where the metro is located. I think once I find the metro I will be able to find my way home. I start walking and take a turn. I quickly become disoriented and can’t remember in which direction to go. I reach for my cell phone to look up the directions but my cell phone is different. It has features I am unfamiliar with. The camera is on as if it is recording my actions. I am unable to pull up a map on the phone because the camera will not stop recording.

I continue to walk and pass by a group of people. I ask them to give me directions. They recognize me as one who is not from the area and they refuse to give me any assistance. I have to figure it out for myself. I continue walking and run across a second group of people this group is colleagues from work. Again I attempt to ask them believing they will be favorable to assisting me. From my question, they can easily identify me as a foreigner to this place again they refuse to answer. One within the group signals me indicating it is the wrong type of question. I have to find a way to get the answer indirectly.

The next group of people I come across I decide to change my approach. Instead of them dismissing me I immediately dismiss them. I decide to tell them to take a hike. They shrug me off in return indicating I can ride the train out ie their way of telling me to take a hike, I thereby get an indication of where the train station might be locate. I now know the metro is in the direction of the shrug.

In this next dream, I meet a guy with whom I am developing a relationship. He takes me to his condo. Come to find out he has a unit in Sunset Harbor South. My ex an I used to have a condo in Sunset Harbor North. A part of me knew someday I would return to this place. I am standing on the balcony overlooking the bay. It is a corner unit from which I have a view of Sunset Harbor North. Knowing exactly where I am I tell him we are in Sunset Harbor South. He is somewhat surprised I am able to determine my location.