April 29, 2018
Last night I had a dream where I am at work. I discover there is a project where my boss needs my attention but he has omitted telling me about it. I just happen to notice it as the paper work crosses my desk because it is due now. There are several people named in the document and to my surprise I am also named. I am surprised because I wouldn’t expect to see my name as a party to an agreement such as this. Yet the agreement isn’t signed by anyone and yet it is due now. I am conflicted because on the one hand if I carry this through to ensure it is ratified I appear to be doing it for self interest since I am named. Yet I wasn’t aware of my name in the document until now. It feels like it is intended for me as a beneficiary or benefactor of the agreement. The parties are out of the country possibly in Brazil in a foreign land. The challenge is I am not quite prepared to meet the many requirements which are formalities and process around the execution of the contract. I think about all the steps I would need to do in order to arrange the many parts enumerated in the agreement. It seems I can’t possibly carry out all it’s parts in the time frame allocated for it’s execution without an act of God.
Fearing defeat but actually not so much defeat since I had not pursued this option for myself. I had nothing invested in it to feel any sense of loss. The loss I feel is on behalf of my boss whose intent it was to execute this contract. I know it wouldn’t have been written if he had not wanted it to take place even in naming me as a party. I do not want to fail my boss even though I just found out about it. It is my desire to see his mission served whatever mission it may be. His desire is my desire.
I then hear several people enter. It is the hour that has come to pass. Now is the time. As I’m sitting there not knowing what to tell him. I feel his presence come over my right shoulder as he whispers to me, “I have taken care of it. The work is done.” Now as I look at the document time stands still the steps necessary for the process are complete one by one. A signature and seal now appear. My work is complete.