July 25, 2018
Last night i had a dream that was troubling to me. The concern is am I getting in over my head. I am looking for an apartment to rent because I want to be close to people. I sign a lease on a corner unit in a high rise apartment building. I have only looked through the unit briefly. As I do a walk through I’m trying to figure out what parts of the unit are actually allocated to me. The color palate is mostly white with shades of beige. I can feel the texture of the rug and fabric of the drapes. I am concerned that I already have responsibility of a house and what I might have gotten into. Why have I committed to additional responsibility? I wonder if I can possibly continue to rent out my house on Airbnb and live for a while in the apartment to experience what it is like to live in an apartment setting and closer to my neighbors. I can continue to monitor the needs of my house and not have to sell it. I ask the owner of the apartment if it is OK if I bring my piano with me. I tell him it has a low profile and should be easy to bring into the unit. He agrees and says its OK. I walk through the different rooms noticing the texture of the carpet and the emptiness within the different rooms and passage ways. I walk into the bedroom and see two people sleeping covered head to toe under their sheets. They have a throw cover over them that has a plush light brown texture which reminds me of Alpaca. I figure I must have wondered into someone else’s bedroom or maybe the current tenant hasn’t fully moved out yet. Is this my bed? Should I be in bed with them? I quickly rush to depart the unit not wanting to disturb their sleep. I want to maintain their privacy. As I leave, I take a minute to look out the windows and notice the pool down below. I think I will like living here.